Truth

Pitch black. That's all I could see from human relationship and interaction between each other. They corrupted among themselves and killing each others for own benefits. Whats life and history teach us? Nothing. Human never learn from mistakes. They're meant to destroy each other till the end. Till the last pieces. I hate posers. Fuck them. Fuck fakers. Fuck masqueraders. FUCK

Mazohyst Of Decadance

A fetus is the product of irresponsible adults.
Here I am,
Without a name.
I don't even know why I'm here
I don't even know
if I just live for a few months

I want to be loved. I want to be born.
Staring at the inside of the mother's body,
I felt something go fast.
It was the second month of consciousness
I can't do anything yet.
Before long, here comes a plug

I was scraped out.
The pain goes through my incomplete body
My mother's screaming stings my ears.
People in white gowns picked me up
In their cruel eyes, I see myself,
covered with blood without a right arm
They wrapped me in a black plastic sheet
Loosing consciousness, I try to think calmly
If you love me the way I am,
even if I'm deformed, it is fine with me
I can't forgive you

If you can't love me, I rather die as I am
That's why I don't bother to cry
like a newborn baby,
and I'll just sleep in peace
Just once,
I want to feel my mother's love with my hand
This may be love.
Thank you
The door was tightly closed
and will never open again
I must be yours in the future

Are you really sure about this?
Yes.
How many times have you had an abortion?
This is the first time for me
I've been involved in countess abortions, murders.
Can you forgive me?
I'm asking you one more time.
Are you sure about this?
Yes.
Are you ready?
Yes.
Let's get started.

La, la, la...

The body will be burnt until it has disappeared
SAYONARA

Kodou

The sadness on the face will probably be gone tomorrow
When did my eyes become dead?

What is waiting for me tomorrow as I sing and live without meaning?
Alone in my room as my heartbeat screams
Don't kid yourself and don't fool yourself

I am addicted to the perceived fate
I am alone I ling on to this fate
Don't kid yourself and don't wound yourself

The unstoppable rain The unstoppable sound The unstoppable scar
The unstoppable love The unstoppble song...
I can't stop it anymore
I can't handle t anymore

Kill the voice Close your eyes Drown in the darkness Roam around
I won't depend on anyone anymore
Kill the voice Close your eyes Drown in the darkness Roam around
I keep inside your keen voice...
All in darkness

It's such an irony this bright sunny weather
-Good Morning-

Kowarete Iku Sekai

Because it's white, it's said it wants to be white
Because it's white, something can be blended in
The water in a little bowl became clear
Little by little the colours faded away

Eventually humans corrupt
Humans can be discolored by other humans
This star they both live on together is discolored
They strangle themselves

How do you describe the time
when the trees coldly looked up at the building that towers above?

The earth is touched by a bloodied hand
Without kindness, flowers withered and died
And by that hand, which has no heart,
the future without sins is murdered

Eventually humans corrupt
Humans can be discolored by other humans
This star they both live on together is discolored
They strangle themselves

In this civilization what sort of life do you picture is the one we wanted?
In this selfish egotistical struggle
What was shed was not blood, but the tears of the planet
The Earth, born so billions of years ago
The proportion of time we've been in existence is just a few seconds
We have not aided in the recovery of the planet
We have not lived our lives in order to help the earth
However, we alone have known an unblemished love

The End is near by, but you who have known love will be all right

this lyric was by a jrock band named girugÄmesh

So Long, Good Bye

Keep changing your mind.
Like clouds in the sky.
Love me when your high.
Leave me when you cry.
I know it all takes time.
Like a river running dry when the suns to bright.

So long this is good-bye.
Maybe we'll meet again in another life.
Like strangers passing by.
Maybe we'll see clearly in a different light.

Keep dodging lights.Like a thief in the night.
The sun will rise and expose all the lies.
So why deny that you and I lead different lives.
The rivers from your eye's can't change my mind.

So long this is good-bye.
Maybe we'll meet again in another life.
Like strangers passing by.
Maybe we'll see clearly in a different light.

Ohh...
The rivers from your eye's can't change my mind.

So long this is good-bye.
Maybe we'll meet again in another life.
Like strangers passing by.
Maybe we'll see clearly in a different light..

Break

Heaven is when the police are British, the chefs Italian, the mechanics German, the lovers French and it is all organized by Swiss. Hell is where the police are German, the chefs British, the mechanics French, the lovers Swiss and it is all organized by Italians.

Em Solution

I deleted everything and started new stuff. No points keeping old stuff thats burden me and keep me stuck at the same starting point. Times to move on. Alot things changed and happened all this while. Promotion on career and income, old buddy back from oversea, get kicked out from my own band by some outsider who good in politics and brainwashing. Hrmph, so far so good. Hope it get better in near future.